Last Sunday morning,
I feel so exhausted 'bout everything (things that makes my world TOO small).
While washing my clothes I found myself talking to God...
"My Day is coming and its like I don't know how to celebrate it with these kind of feeling.
Things that make my world TOO small drowned me into something (hindi po drugs Huh!! hehe)
I was drowned into sadness, depression, uneasiness... so unpeaceful
I became TOO contented that I have "God"...
I attend mass, prayer meeting etc.,
But the fire of faith in me covered by a thick fog..
a Fog that consist of a so called "PROBLEMS"...
I forgot to look behind ... to look whats inside...
I just rely on "Lips prayer"...
I admit that it all went wrong on how I see things...
I believe... but I forgot how to accept it...
and my faith fade not by lips/act but by "heart"..
Way back years ago, I thought some people who have a bad attitude/life are just attending Religious community to appear good,
I judged them by what I see they are... I was so wrong
Then I suddenly look up to my self now....
I know, I'm not attending all these things for some reason or what so ever....
but because I'm longing for God...
Sadness, loneliness is like a virus that when it spread your dead...
.........While washing my clothes I found myself talking to God...
"My Day is coming and its like I don't know or how to celebrate it with these feeling.
So many things run after each other, Napakaraming worries....
suddenly, I just said...
"Lord, I'm tired help me... I lift it up to you...Ikaw na po ang bahala."
That's it...
(from the bottom of my heart... I really said that... Its like there's no way to run BUT GOD)
Right after that day...I received a priceless Blessing,
Peaceful heart...Wala ng hihigit pa dito, D best!!!
Things happened so fast.. unexplainable how God works.. all I know that God is so GOOD!
He make things possible, for who Believe, Accept and Trust him.
from this, I learned things I thought I already know...
I became worried for a lot of things...
Worrying is the Opposite of Trusting God
Worrying Puts Your Focus in the Wrong Direction.
in Philippians 4:6-7
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
Worry replaced by Prayer equals Trust
Thank you so much Lord,
for keep on holding me, whenever I let go...
for keep on watching my steps, whenever I get lost...
for keep on loving me, whenever I became unlovable...
Thank you Lord...
Thank you Lord for my family specially to my parents, to my friends, OLACCC organization
and to my beloved Love (LJ).. Thank you so much po...
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